Going Out

Well, the pic says it all right?
What I realized these days, is that I just don't go out enough. I mean, not much for me to do also right? Go out shopping alone? Buy stuff and spend money for no reason. Go watch movies alone? Like a very lame experience leh. All in all, it feels pointless for me to just get up early, get dressed, and walk along Orchard Road aimlessly with no friends around.

So then, what happened to all the friends I made over the years? To be honest, I have no idea whatsoever. Nobody ever asks me out. I have 2 theories. Firstly, it could be a personality issue. Either I have a hateful personality that people don't like, but DON'T SAY. Or I had projected an overtly serious attitude during my study times, that people are afraid to call me for the less serious stuff, and that's sad. The other theory, is that I am just a really boring and forgettable person... That's kinda the worse. It'd be sad to learn that people over the years have just decided to forget about me. Am I really so insignificant?

Nonetheless, I think I should do something about it. Remaining at home most of life, will only lead to mental instability. I know it, I am already feeling it. And sad to say, I do have an extreme example in my mother. Right now I'm thinking, going out on little trips alone is better than not going out at all and gaming all day. Need to strike a balance, and actively seek out new experiences in life. I need to continually grow as a person, I want to.

So what's the plan right now?

Well, I don't have a detailed masterplan. But I do have an idea of some of the things I want to go to. The first group of events I want to be more involved in, is anime/comics conventions and stuff. I currently don't have a list of them, but I will go and map out what are all the prominent events in the year, and I will be there. When I finally buy my new camera, I can even go get some cool cosplay pics as well. Considering that I actually know 1 or 2 people involved in these, I might actually bump into familiar people there!

Also, I may go for IT Fair, PC Show type of events to look and see what's up. And I will go out for dinner with family when they want to. But my point is, I want to be actively planning and making sure that I go out and see things. I want to explorer. As much as I don't seem like it, I am the explorer sort. Albeit more of a closet explorer. I innately NEED to so and explore, find out new things, learn about stuff. It's just a natural yearning. And staying at home all these years is honestly driving me crazy.

So at the start of every week, I shall plan where to go for the weekend. At least 1 place every week I think is a healthy start. That way I get to explore at least 4 places a month. If you are reading this, and still consider me your friend, do feel free to propose places to me. We can go together if you want. Or I could go alone if you don't like me. Starting this week, I will be heading to PC Show to look at laptops for my sister. I can probably fit one more outing, but currently don't have anything planned. We'll see how it goes.

Let's change for the better!