CNY Part II: Slightly emo, and a tinge of regret

Well now that I've calmed down, it's really not as bad as the title says.

This year's Chinese New Year is waaaay different than most other years. I mean like totally different feel lor. Firstly, Ang Pow collection has decreased somewhat. This is due to some complicated politics on my Mom's side family. Basically, their whole family cannot get along one. Son in the end, we didn't go visit my grandma, which I haven't seen in over a year. Good thing though, is that it was made up for by my eldest uncle's phat Ang Pow which kind of surprised us. My mom thinks it is some kind of plot to try and bribe us... Thinking way too much into it please. His Ang Pow has always been the variable, giving different amounts from year to year, but usually on the higher side.

Speaking of my mom, she can get very paranoid at times, and that's the only thing I really can't stand. Maybe it's her job and all, and she feels a need to be extra protective of her children. But hey I am freakin old enough already leh. And because of her, I couldn't go to my Dad's friend house like we always do on the 2nd day of CNY. In fact, I've been banned from going there for at least a few years now. And that made me lose one of my childhood friends. We used to play together since when I was a kid. So sad...





That song just happened to play while we were in the car, and it just clicked. It made me feel emo for some time. But I guess I'm better now. Good enough to be blogging at least, lol. Another thing I don't like about my parents is that they like to compare us to other kids. Like how my dad's friends have kids that get 9 'A1's yada yada. I mean come on, it's demoralising! You don't see my comparing my parents, I respect them. Not everyone was built the same way. It used to be worse, coz I have many cousins who are lawyers and accountants, and we seem to be the oddballs. But slowly I grew numb of it. Now it's more like "ah fuck it, who cares". Inferiority Complex is not a matter to be taken lightly.

Sorry you had to read an emo post during the festive season, had to get it off my chest. I can't wait to get back to school honestly speaking. At least it's more 'exciting', and there are stuff for me to do, and people to talk to. So.... See you all tomorrow!

You know it's true.