So close yet so far

Been suffering from a bit of a depression lately...

The 8 MCs project sure is tough, lots of things to do, and it's completion all looks so far away from now. Not even sure if we can do it. It enormous.

But seriously, that is just but one small little thing troubling me.

On a more general scale, I'm just feeling really down and super sick of things. It just leads me to constantly doubt myself. Whether I actually have the ability or capacity to be a regular human being. Perhaps I'm really not all that great. Perhaps I can't do it...

Apparently, it seems to be a documented sickness. Was really surprised when I read that it can lead to serious physical or mental illness, suicide or possibly even death. Whoa, is it really that serious? I probably won't kill myself. I think.